Being bipolar it is easy to become obsessed with something. Right now it is building a web page. All my time and energy gets devoted to a task. It is amazing how focused I can be when I feel this way.

Verry much diffrent then when I am Manic. Mania is the state where your thoughts are racing so fast that you can't keep up with your self. Your thoughts are pinball machine in your head. Noisy, never in the same place, and boncing of things.

My mom keeps getting mad at me for my obsessive nature. She thinks I'm getting sick. Thats the problem with bipolar even when you THINK you are feeling well it is hard to tell for sure.

I have done some realy strange things when I was in mania. It was when we first discovered that I was bipolar and I was first diagnosed. Everything from beliving: that god talked to me, I was possed by an evil spirt, that I had everything from diabeties to dehydration.

I felt things that were not their such as when I went to blockbuster one day and I could feel evil coming from the scarry movie section and goodness and peace comming from the family section. It is verry hard to describe this extra sensation that I had. It makes you wonder if these sensations acctualy do exist in real life and not just an abnormality manifactured in the head.